I have not been successful in building up my home lately. I have been trying to get out of the funk and get back to focusing rightly, but I have to tell you, it's been nigh on impossible. There are many reasons for this, which I will be sharing in future posts (I'm still trying to share the basics and just can't deal with it all at once, for crying out loud!).
There is a scripture that says something about a wise woman building up her home while a foolish one tears it down with her own hands. I don't, honest to Father God, know which I am. I'm trying to be wise, but my husband takes everything I say - regardless of tone of voice - as the other! I know who I'm trying to be, but if my efforts are not perceived as they are intended... I'm not succeeding somewhere. *sigh*
So... I'm trying to get things more balanced. Instead of spending all my time looking for a job I can work from home, I'm trying to get some cleaning and grocery shopping in, too. I'm so thankful that our pantry has been well supplied because our fridge was almost empty until today! That made it possible for me to do some cleaning with greater ease, though.
This may seem small and silly, but I don't get enough time all at once to clean the fridge really well. So, I decided to do what I could do. I got a small-ish rag wet and left it on the difficult spots until I opened the fridge again later. Doing that throughout the day enabled me to get my fridge really quite clean... Then I had a few minutes all together while I was waiting for Beauty Man to get home from work and I used that time to wash the bottom shelf (which, if that comes out the drawers must come out, too). So, now a good bit of the fridge is all sparkley! Yeay for the bits that can get done throughout a day!
Next time, I think (hopefully Friday), I'll finish dealing with the Cat coming out of the bag. ;)
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Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Thursday, March 1, 2012
My Twin
Pre-Post Note:
I know I said I'd continue with the bagged cat, and I will on my next planned blogging day (Friday). Right now I'm just going to share something sort of extra. Thus the non-planned blogging day.
On to the post:
I have my first follower! This is seriously something special to me because I'm not sharing this blog with anyone I actually know. So... how would anyone find me? I've wondered... and wondered if I was chatting at the air, as it were. I haven't heard from anyone. So, I figured it was highly likely. I decided that it didn't matter one bit, though, because writing here has been helping ME so much... even though it's been way more infrequent than I planned (especially in the beginning).
So, I've mentioned her a couple times. I don't even remember how I came across her blog. But I did. And I love it! I'm pretty sure I shared a link to it before because I loved it so much. And she's got the Amazon store I was hoping anyone who reads here would jump over to use when purchasing from Amazon. She found me as a result of my link to her blog. And do we're becoming friends! Email/internet friends, but still friends. Based on what she shares and how she writes on her blog, we could be twins! Maybe you'd disagree, but I think she is amazing. I love that her family picture is not up-to-date... makes her real and that much more likeable and similar to me! :)
My first follower, as mentioned at the very beginning, is my twin! We are not literally twins, of course, because we DO have 2 totally different parents. If it were even remotely possible, I would think we were literally identical twins seperated at birth. But both of our Moms did the whole natural labor thing - so they were both very aware of how many babies did and did not come out of their whoo-haas. So, I'm left to believe that it's just kizmet. We both think we were best friends in heaven before we were born.
We're twins right down to the way we look. Tori (my twin... and she did give me permission to talk about her!) has said she's sure I'm prettier, but since I can see HER picture and she has no idea what I look like, I say with absolute authority that we could be twins. We think alike, too. Definitely more like twins seperated at birth than those raised together! ^_^
We are both "into" and knowledgeable about Conspiracy Theories. I odn't know which of us suggested it first, but it is possible that we are clones! I'm totally joking, of course. But it is fun and funny to talk about it.
Obviously I like Tori. If I didn't, dislike would certainly spring from some form of self-loathing because we are so much alike!
I told her I wanted to share about her blog, and she gave me permission. I did let her know that I really don't know how many people actually read my blog. I know how to look at STATS and all, but that doesn't tell me who actually READS what I have to say. I mean, I don't have loads of pictures or anything. And the likelihood of anyone reading all I write... well, a Monster Girl can hope loads of people want to and do... but any of kind of girl, even of the monster type must also remain aware of reality, too! She wasn't sure if she would share my blog because she was worried that others might think it's her own - since she's going through a really difficult time currently. I totally feel for her because our stories are so VERY similar. *sigh* Just another example of how the one who seeks to detroy souls is aiming at the family... and perhaps most often the heart of men via their carnal desires. grrrr...
If you want to know what I look like, notice her family portrait. That's darn near exactly what I look like. We seriously could be twins!
I know I said I'd continue with the bagged cat, and I will on my next planned blogging day (Friday). Right now I'm just going to share something sort of extra. Thus the non-planned blogging day.
On to the post:
I have my first follower! This is seriously something special to me because I'm not sharing this blog with anyone I actually know. So... how would anyone find me? I've wondered... and wondered if I was chatting at the air, as it were. I haven't heard from anyone. So, I figured it was highly likely. I decided that it didn't matter one bit, though, because writing here has been helping ME so much... even though it's been way more infrequent than I planned (especially in the beginning).
So, I've mentioned her a couple times. I don't even remember how I came across her blog. But I did. And I love it! I'm pretty sure I shared a link to it before because I loved it so much. And she's got the Amazon store I was hoping anyone who reads here would jump over to use when purchasing from Amazon. She found me as a result of my link to her blog. And do we're becoming friends! Email/internet friends, but still friends. Based on what she shares and how she writes on her blog, we could be twins! Maybe you'd disagree, but I think she is amazing. I love that her family picture is not up-to-date... makes her real and that much more likeable and similar to me! :)
My first follower, as mentioned at the very beginning, is my twin! We are not literally twins, of course, because we DO have 2 totally different parents. If it were even remotely possible, I would think we were literally identical twins seperated at birth. But both of our Moms did the whole natural labor thing - so they were both very aware of how many babies did and did not come out of their whoo-haas. So, I'm left to believe that it's just kizmet. We both think we were best friends in heaven before we were born.
We're twins right down to the way we look. Tori (my twin... and she did give me permission to talk about her!) has said she's sure I'm prettier, but since I can see HER picture and she has no idea what I look like, I say with absolute authority that we could be twins. We think alike, too. Definitely more like twins seperated at birth than those raised together! ^_^
We are both "into" and knowledgeable about Conspiracy Theories. I odn't know which of us suggested it first, but it is possible that we are clones! I'm totally joking, of course. But it is fun and funny to talk about it.
Obviously I like Tori. If I didn't, dislike would certainly spring from some form of self-loathing because we are so much alike!
I told her I wanted to share about her blog, and she gave me permission. I did let her know that I really don't know how many people actually read my blog. I know how to look at STATS and all, but that doesn't tell me who actually READS what I have to say. I mean, I don't have loads of pictures or anything. And the likelihood of anyone reading all I write... well, a Monster Girl can hope loads of people want to and do... but any of kind of girl, even of the monster type must also remain aware of reality, too! She wasn't sure if she would share my blog because she was worried that others might think it's her own - since she's going through a really difficult time currently. I totally feel for her because our stories are so VERY similar. *sigh* Just another example of how the one who seeks to detroy souls is aiming at the family... and perhaps most often the heart of men via their carnal desires. grrrr...
If you want to know what I look like, notice her family portrait. That's darn near exactly what I look like. We seriously could be twins!
Monday, January 23, 2012
The Paper Heart
When I was a teen, I hear a lil' something about visualization, goal setting, writing 'em down and making 'em real. The Young Women's Program in my church really is something wonderful. Periodically, there was much reference to these subjects in my youth program.
Some of it must've sunk in sometime because I make a paper heart when I was 17. To be more preceise, I drew a heart on a piece of sketch paper and proceeded to accomplish my rendition of artistic letters within the heart. The lettering formed words (of course!). The words described the man I hope to find... or who I hope was looking for me.
I lost that heart for a time and some. And then it found me again. The years had passed, but my hopes remained unchanged. I marveled that I could know, so young, the qualities I'd still want in a spouse years later.
My husband found me a year or so later. On matchmaker.com, as a matter-of-fact. It's still up in the air with us, in a way... but I believe that kind of meeting REALLY can work. When he found me, by what he told me and what I was able to observe, I believed he was thefulfillment of that heart. He truly seemed to be the physical embodyment, in a man I could touch, of all that I desired in a man I could/would marry.
Unfortunately, many of those qualities were intrinsically part of my hopes and the expectations I formed. You know, those hopes that are waiting the scalple in the morgue right now. So, obviously most of my hopes and expectations are new or long dead. And the most recent death is still SO very painful that I cry when I speak around it... cause I'm not speaking directly about what I'm dealing with the people in my daily life. I just can't face showing them that I truly am Monster Girl! :( I just don't want them to see me as I really am. *sigh*
My Beauty Man does still fulfill some of the less important traits. And, when it's all said and done, he is a good man. Not good to or for me at times and in many ways, but obviously all of that is part of my fire (great link to a post that expounds on just what I mean by "fire" in that sentence!).
I do believe visualization as well as goal setting and writing can and DO work. Sometimes (OFTEN in my case) not quite the way I thought or hoped they would, but still.
Some of it must've sunk in sometime because I make a paper heart when I was 17. To be more preceise, I drew a heart on a piece of sketch paper and proceeded to accomplish my rendition of artistic letters within the heart. The lettering formed words (of course!). The words described the man I hope to find... or who I hope was looking for me.
I lost that heart for a time and some. And then it found me again. The years had passed, but my hopes remained unchanged. I marveled that I could know, so young, the qualities I'd still want in a spouse years later.
My husband found me a year or so later. On matchmaker.com, as a matter-of-fact. It's still up in the air with us, in a way... but I believe that kind of meeting REALLY can work. When he found me, by what he told me and what I was able to observe, I believed he was thefulfillment of that heart. He truly seemed to be the physical embodyment, in a man I could touch, of all that I desired in a man I could/would marry.
Unfortunately, many of those qualities were intrinsically part of my hopes and the expectations I formed. You know, those hopes that are waiting the scalple in the morgue right now. So, obviously most of my hopes and expectations are new or long dead. And the most recent death is still SO very painful that I cry when I speak around it... cause I'm not speaking directly about what I'm dealing with the people in my daily life. I just can't face showing them that I truly am Monster Girl! :( I just don't want them to see me as I really am. *sigh*
My Beauty Man does still fulfill some of the less important traits. And, when it's all said and done, he is a good man. Not good to or for me at times and in many ways, but obviously all of that is part of my fire (great link to a post that expounds on just what I mean by "fire" in that sentence!).
I do believe visualization as well as goal setting and writing can and DO work. Sometimes (OFTEN in my case) not quite the way I thought or hoped they would, but still.
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